teacher's pet

Okay, teacher moment here: I hate feeling like the teacher's pet. But sometimes you just have this idea that you really want to get out of your head. It really bothers me when people are so closed-minded about new ideas. You know who I'm talking about, the people who are negative about doing something new for some reason or another. Sometimes I just think they're lazy and stuck in their ways. Sometimes I think they're jealous that they aren't in charge, or they aren't the one who thought of the idea. I'm not really sure what the "Christian perspective" I should have on the issue is. Like PLC for example. There are so many people who didn't like the book Getting Started. I, on the other hand, really DID like it. I really agreed with the theory behind it, and I really think that some of those types of changes need to be made in our school. I know the book was a little redundant, but there really is no need to be quite so critical! Don't we all teach "2 stars and a wish"? Shouldn't we comment on the good more than the bad? Okay, this is going far away from the topic I wanted to talk about.... let's try again...

I thought that our school should "collaborate" through a blog like the elementary is. It's a great idea. We don't have time in our meetings on Fridays to collaborate about the stuff we want to talk about because of our "norms"... and the topics of conversation have already been chosen for us. So can't we do some real, honest, open collaboration through a blog? That was my thinking. So I asked our principals about it, got the go ahead, and made the blog. And I made the first post on the blog, and now I feel like a big dork. Like everyone who goes to the intermediate blog is going to be like "Who does she think she is?" or "Why does she think she's in charge of this?" or "Who made her boss?" When really I just wanted us to be able to talk about PLC, and no one else was going to do it. You know? I hate feeling like the teacher's pet! And then to make matters worse, I had this other idea that I didn't think was too shabby either. And I was literally afraid to share it with anyone because I didn't want to start up TWO new things during the summer when I'm supposed to be NOT thinking about school. But, I guess if my goal as a teacher is evolving into really really really helping my students learn, and I think I have a way to help them do that, then I would not be being true to myself if I didn't act on that. So I emailed Sue at FirstPLACE today to tell her my idea about getting more community members involved in our classes as tutors, and she loved it! So I emailed my principal, and we'll just have to wait to see how she responds. Sometimes I'm more afraid of how she'll respond than anything. That's really why I went to Sue first. What is this fear of mine? I know it has to be deeper than just face value. Afraid of being thought of as the teacher's pet. Afraid of telling your principal that you've got a great idea. Afraid of people knowing that you are working on school stuff during the summer. Man, who is this scaredy cat? And why is she so scared of everything? Someone give me a verse to memorize. I just need to worry less about what the world thinks of me, less about how I am perceived or talked about, less about lots of things. Less. And just try to be true to my heart and to what God lays on my heart to undertake. True.